The alphabet at 17

A is for anxiety.

B is for breakdowns. At home, at school, in the car...

C is for cutting because it's hard to find people who don't anymore.

D is for damn because sometimes it needs to be said.

E is for everyone who told me I'm too smart for my own good because they're probably right.

F is for faith.

G is for gone because that's where I want to be right now.

H is for hate.

I is for insomnia because I can't stop thinking.

J is for justice because life isn't fair.

K is for kissing, or the lack thereof.

L is for love.

M is for mothers, even if I don't tell mine anything.

N is for nothing.

O is for omission.

P is for pregnancy tests and wondering who is stressing over them today and if any if them are my friends.

Q is for quizzes that I've failed.

R is for running from your problems because I've been told it doesn't solve anything, but it's sure nice for the time being.

S is for sleep because it doesn't happen very often.

T is for traitors.

U is for uncertainty about going to a Mormon university for the next four plus years of my life.

V is for virgin and wondering who's talking to the bishop this weekend.

W is for waist and worries about how many inches it is today.

X is for Xanax and all the people I know that are on it.

Y is for youth because it's harder than my parents remember it being.

Z is for zebra because I don't want to talk about zits.

--Alis